SO STUPID..!!

I JUST DONE STUPID THING AGAIN...
WHY DID I KEEP MAKING IT..??
WENT I SEE RICH PEOPLE, I DON'T FEEL JEALOUS OF THEM... BECAUSE I KNOW THEY HAVE GOOD LUCK... BUT WHY CAN I BECOME LIKE THEM..?? I HAVE TRY MANY THING, BUT I STILL CAN'T CHANGE MY FATE...
IS THIS IS THE ONLY LIFE THAT I GOING TO HAVE...?? IS THAT I CAN'T CHANGE THEM...??
WRITING IN THIS BLOG JUST THE ONLY WAY THAT I CAN THINK TO MAKE ME INSANE...
I THINK, IF I DON'T WRITE THIS I MIGHT KILL MYSELF... I SCARE TO DIED, BUT STILL IF THAT GOING TAKE MY PROBLEM AWAY WHY DON'T DO IT....??
I HOPE BY WRITING THIS I GOING TO FORGET MY PROBLEM OR ABLE TO SOLVE IT... I SHAME WITH MY FAMILY.... I LOVE MY PARENTS.... I DON'T WANT TO MAKE THE SUFURE BECAUSE OF ME... RIGHT NOW, I SHOULD BE THE ONE WHO SUPPORT THEM, NOT THEM THAT SUPPORT ME.... I'M SORRY MOM.... I'M SORRY DAD... I'M JUST USELESS SON... I ALWAYS DISAPPOINTED YOU...
I JUST REALY HOPE THAT I CAN HELP YOU... BUT I'M JUST A FAILURE... I JUST LOSER.. AND I JUST GOING TP KEEP YOU SAD... I KNOW YOU SAD... I'M SAD TO... I SAD WITH MY LIFE RIGHT NOW...